Everyone (Interested Readers)--
I am leaving Cheyenne in about a week. It brings mixed emotions. With few exceptions, I have not lived anywhere in my life longer than I have lived here (over four years). This is a long time to spend in one place and memories inevitably will take place. Some good, some bad, but all still etched memories. As I was cleaning out my garage this weekend (after a sad garage sale with little turnout), I found myself feeling an overwhelming feeling of sadness.
That feeling hit me so unexpected I wasn't sure what to make of it. When I finally got a hold of it, I understood. The dust of my chaotic whirlwind life these past months has settled and it hit me, I am REALLY leaving this place and all the memories I have created here.
Memories have a way of holding on to things you love, things you want to forget, and things that prevent you from moving forward. Even the most subtle events have a way of staying imprinted into the depths of our minds.
This emotion only lasted a couple hours until I started running around packing things again and the dust blurred the melancholy feeling.
I realized in the mix of emotions that day that despite everything, these past four years have helped me grow significantly, placed great people in my life, and helped me realize what is important. It brought me to the place I am supposed to be and it really is as simple as that. This is where I am supposed to be and how I got here is the way it was supposed to happen. Boy, what a long four year path just to get here. But, that is what is is!
I have such sweet adventures coming up and I am looking forward to them all. I am looking forward to the next stage in my life. Interestingly, the NEXT place I live is the FIRST place I have ever completely chosen.
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There will always be a chapter in our lives when we get to open new doors so we can better see our options on what is best to be done or to know which way to go. I know everyday we experience this little by little until we finally gets to decide our path.